Under the slab of injustice Part 2. Resentment - not a sentence?
Loss of security and resentment as a result immediately hit the properties of the anal child. The biggest lover of study turns into a goof, the most obedient and kind child becomes stubborn, the biggest know-it-all and remembrancer of everything in the world turns into a poor student, unable to learn even a short rhyme, the greatest lover of cleanliness turns into a chronic filthy …
Part 1. Mom
But back to the confused anal boy. Loss of security and resentment as a result immediately hit the properties of the anal child. The biggest lover of study turns into a dunce, the most obedient child becomes stubborn, the biggest know-it-all and remembrancer of everything in the world turns into a poor student, unable to learn even a short rhyme, the biggest lover of cleanliness turns into a chronic filthy …
From the memories of one anal boy:
I remember that I wasn’t drawn to study …
The attitude to the acquisition of knowledge was absolutely even, which is not typical for anality. Even the teachers noticed that I was not using my full potential, I was learning half-heartedly …
Already at school, a strange attitude towards girls began to arise. Naturally, they were attracted to, but something did not allow normal contact with them. There was some kind of barrier. There was constant mistrust, I didn't want to open up completely. Unconsciously, I did not go to the development of relations, even if the girl responded to me with sympathy. I could just exchange glances for months, keeping my distance.
From his youth, the relationship with the girl was extremely idealized. The first date caused tremendous thrill and excitement. Every step was thought over: from the wardrobe to the farewell scene. And, of course, it was terribly painful when, for no apparent reason, the relationship with the girl did not work out. And every time everything ended abruptly, without warning.
… After a series of failures, the feeling began to be born that I was somehow poor. And suspicion woke up to the girls.
The special psyche of an anal person transfers everything experienced in childhood and into the present and into the future … Each negative experience is imprinted on consciousness.
Evaluating through themselves, analogs believe that in order to get good for themselves, it is necessary to do the same for another. If I always strive for equality and do not tolerate injustice, either towards myself or towards another, then I expect the same from others. So an anal person begins to do good to others, and when he does not receive a response, he falls into the trap of resentment.
There is even no reasoning here. Just an unconscious assessment on the principle of "all equally" puts an unambiguous diagnosis of the negative in his address. The sad thing is that the resulting imbalances, as a rule, are not compensated by anything, which leads to an increase in the level of negativity. Mom, the first girl, the second girl offended me - after a while I take offense at the entire female gender.
It is the hardest for analists to adapt negative experiences. You cannot run away from your innate properties. So they push in front of themselves all their lives a suitcase with the grievances of childhood … which every year goes deeper into the ground.
… Flowers, attention and an open heart … I so wanted to please the first, second, third girl. After each failure, it seemed to me that I was not kind enough, not convincing enough in my intentions. I did everything my head could understand to be the best.
A direct connection in the form of contempt, hatred, aggression in an anal person after the first failures is often not observed. Rather, he himself does not observe it. The reflection of the first (second, third) bad experience, as a rule, is hidden behind a storm of rationalizations of their subsequent actions and decisions.
For example, even after establishing a stable relationship, an analysand with a bad experience will not rush to the registry office. Despite the fact that it is for him that family is the number one priority in life, he finds a whole list of excuses why there is no need to formalize the relationship. Suddenly it turns out that this is not modern, and “just a stamp in the passport,” and a waste of money. “And we still need to live for our pleasure” and “do not rush until we have our own living space”, “let's get on our feet, and then” … All these excuses are based on mistrust of women, which sprouted from the first negative experience of an anal man in relations with women, mental bias into a position of resentment.
Scorched heart
From memories:
How about cheating on your birthday ?! Easily!
Suddenly torn out heart … This is more than murder … This is the cremation of the meaning of existence in principle!
… The ground disappeared from under my feet. Shock … Half of life, all aspirations are buried alive, there is only dead left WHY !!! ???
This is experienced only once in a lifetime … After that it is no longer life … Just a formal presence … As if a mental invalid with a decaying wound for the rest of his life …
What will you do if you realize that you will never get your dream ???
You can guess the answer: "Why then live?"
The hand reaches for the bottle? It won't help, I assure you!
It will be possible to forget only until the morning. As soon as the eyes open - death again …
I would like, really want to ask this "person" … I would like to understand … Although this is beyond my strength …
You don’t regret what is unnecessary or what you didn’t invest in… There is no value in this. And if you lived with a person for 5 years? If you lived for him, for the sake of a common future? If you merged with him into one whole?
Will you be able to work in the coming days? No, forget it!
You will not even be able to think about anything other than what happened …
Treason … pain … betrayal … abomination … filth.
So we got a huge bias for the psyche of the anal. Now his whole life will depend on the need to compensate for this pain. Even direct alignment from the now former half in the form of remorse, sincere apologies will not help …
And then everything is like in a movie with an unhappy ending. The whole plot tends to its natural ending. In our case - to compensation. And nothing that a specific person has hurt. We have no control over our states and do not know what to do with them until we are aware of them. The anal's mind has no choice but to transfer the resentment from a particular woman to all female representatives. This process is also helped by time, which only increases the experienced negative feelings. Resentment does not disappear anywhere. On the contrary, it accumulates and swells in volume.
The woman becomes dirty.
This is the principle of evaluating the anal psyche. Either clean or dirty. For us, there is nothing in between, something else. What is there? There is a never-ending sexual attraction to a woman and a deep, unredeemed resentment towards them. And there is something else … This is an unconscious desire to restore the imbalance. A simple unconscious equation: I was hurt by a woman - I have to answer and return the pain back … But not only to the specific offender, but also to everyone else who gets in the way.
Do you think the analnik will prepare an insidious plan of revenge day and night, will sleep and see the details of his revenge? Not at all. Unfortunately, he won't even be aware of it. His unconscious will pull him into this scenario like a puppet. As in the well-known expression: "We wanted the best, but it turned out as always."
For compensation, or rather, for revenge, the anal sex is drawn to the appropriate women, who, for their part, are most suitable for accepting his accumulated pain. This is such an unconscious conspiracy, where there is no understanding at all. Each plays out his scenario, choosing a suitable actor for himself.
It all depends on the degree of skew. But trends will remain unchanged. An offended man with an anal vector will bully every woman in his life, directly or indirectly, physically or verbally. There will certainly be distrust of her. It is highly likely that there will never be a registry office again. Relationships will definitely roll downhill, without having time to start humanly.
Now our analnik sincerely believes that all women are creatures. He needs confirmation, and it is quickly found. The next woman will definitely throw him, having received a dose of bullying before that. Everyone got what he was looking for … Life confirms suspicions … Immersion in this darkness continues intensively. Other relationships will be essentially exactly the same, only in darker and more saturated colors.
This scenario is supported by a lack of desire. Desires to manifest in some way, desires to achieve goals for the sake of a woman. There is no desire to move through life at all.
The trail of resentment leads the anal on a four-lane track of uncompensated negativity. Now a woman for him is the main enemy of humanity. How can you even let women get closer to you than a cannon shot? Sympathies and sexual preferences are gradually shifting either towards homosexuality or towards pedophilia. After all, you can only trust a friend … A powerful undifferentiated libido, chronically lacking fulfillment, does its job.
In the most negative version, the anal man unconsciously switches his sexual attraction to children. At first, his attraction is still limited by moral, ethical, cultural barriers and is expressed as hyper-concern. But after a while, the accumulated frustration breaks through this limitation, manifesting itself in a direct sexual attraction to children. This path leads to pedophilia.
While we are alone, all our "devils" quietly doze. It looks like you can't say that a person is deeply offended. But this quickly pops up at the first, deeper contacts.
No ballast, no ideas … flew …
From memories:
This is the last nail in the coffin lid …
When there is no previous meaning in life, finding and plunging into a new one is not such a problem … Especially when there is a sound vector.
It is impossible to trust women anymore … I don’t want to trust anyone anymore … All traitors !!! And why now try to build something with these deceitful little people !?
… The head involuntarily rises to the sky … In every sense …
Nothing keeps me here anymore !? Women are not interesting. The family is not a priority, which means that the desire to work is also not, there is no point in actively showing oneself in society … SIMPLY IS SENSE!
Immediately, I removed all the brakes from devouring "spiritual-esoteric" food. God has become my new and only meaning. And the further, the sharper it was. Desire for everything from my usual past life disappeared.
It took only about 3 years to completely lose everything. All the main property was sold: an apartment, cars. There was almost no income for subsistence … He lived with friends, then with parents.
It was completely inadequate. I remember the expression on my mother's face when I eloquently argued to her that I was right and such a position in life. She was sadly silent … But her eyes made an incurable diagnosis. There was a feeling that they already treated me like a disabled person, and a hopeless one.
Insult is not a sentence?
Is insult a sentence?..
It is very likely that yes … Considering all the components and the direct connection of the development of the anal person with his past.
Is there a real opportunity to be happy today, in the future, if the entire past is permeated with a black, mourning ribbon of betrayal and lies?
How to get out from under this heavy coma, which has been wound for years, decades? A grain of sand of resentment against my mother, multiplied by time, one fine day became a lead tombstone somewhere in the middle of life …
Well, since there is nothing to lose … Maybe let's try the last option?
Distortions of the psyche are solved by counter-acting awareness. True, these are not mantras or something like that. Nothing will change from lamentation and self-hypnosis. Whispering under the breath: "I forgive, I forgive, I forgive …" - will only mean wasted time, which is almost gone to LIVE.
And if you have already bypassed all the attendants, palmists, sat to the holes of the couch of candidates of psychological sciences and have all the same - a broken trough, then I recommend taking responsibility for yourself and helping yourself on your own.
Master systems thinking at the training in system-vector psychology. Remember and pass through yourself, but systematically, all the acute moments from your past. Find the relationship between the very first moment of psychological disturbance in childhood followed by key events and disappointments.
It is highly advisable to write out your first conscious journey into the past. This is guaranteed to impress! Writing out, you will fix and more deeply work through your states, beating a handful of your almost lost life from the subconscious.
Track your desires, thoughts, actions. And try to systematically determine their essence, establishing the same systemic reason for the current manifestation. Make this your top priority for a while. Do you want to say goodbye to resentment forever?
You can track your results in 3 areas: relationship in a couple, situation at work, attitude towards mom. Just ask yourself after a while: “How do I feel about a loved one? Do I like my job? What do I feel when I remember my mother?"
Gradually, you will find inner peace and balance. Feelings with a loved one will become brighter and more voluminous. At work, there will be steady progress. And the thought of mom in the chest will wake up a light warmth with a smack of quivering feeling.
Find something you like! If you haven't had time yet …
Bad conditions very often accompany socially unrealized people. Loss of social adaptation is one of the consequences of resentment … This is one of her tools that cut you off from a fulfilling life.
Our only goal in this situation is to change our state. While the state of resentment prevails in us, which for many years constrains our mind, feelings, emotions, immobilizing us in all directions, we have around us a corresponding environment of people and circumstances that every day will only confirm our resentment …
We do not trust - as a reflection, we get every reason not to trust even more. Influencing the external, trying to change the circumstances, not yourself, in this case WILL NOT WORK!
Not a drop more …
At a time of a rapid breakaway in technological development, at a time that some 15 years ago would have been assessed as radical fiction, when humanity rushes at a breakneck speed into the future, overtaking adaptation to the already created, armed with fifth iPhones, Google glasses and a mortgage for several next incarnations, only the most important tool for obtaining happiness in life is still too tough for us. And this tool is the knowledge of our psychic.
We still live by poking around like little children.
How to bring up children? - Lottery …
How and with whom is it better to build a happy relationship? - Three thimbles …
What is my purpose? Who am I? - Endless tales of countless sages from Tibetan caves …
Not life, but Russian roulette! Who's new?!.
I've had enough - I'm PAS!
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