Children are inferno. Part 2. The origin of moral and ethical degeneration
Delays in psychosexual development at any of the periods leave their mark on a person's later life. The first signs of delays in the sound vector can be detected in early childhood. So, for Adam Lanz, who killed 27 people at Sandy Hook Elementary School …
Children are inferno. Part 1
Noise
In the process of concentration, the sound engineer learns to distinguish the meanings of words and to develop neural connections that are responsible for learning. A sound engineer is a person born with a need for silence. Silence creates the necessary climate in which he is ready to listen to the world around him, thus receiving development through his erogenous zone - the ear.
The soundman's ears are so sensitive that the baby can be damaged even before birth. Almost all parents of school shooters were fond of weapons or had an indirect relationship to it. If such a mother visited shooting ranges during pregnancy, then the sound engineer, already in the womb, received severe injuries from the sounds of shots.
From 3 to 6 years old, any child goes through an important stage of development - primary puberty. During this period, he receives the skills of socialization and natural prohibition, fear of punishment. Secondary puberty he passes later, at the age of 12-15, acquiring cultural and other restrictions and thus completing the development of all the skills necessary for adaptation in society.
Delays in psychosexual development at any of the periods leave their mark on a person's later life. The first signs of delays in the sound vector can be detected in early childhood. For example, Adam Lanz, who killed 27 people in Sandy Hook Elementary School, had serious communication difficulties and sensory motor impairments until he was 3 years old.
At 13, he was diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome and obsessive-compulsive disorder. During school breaks, in the period of peak concentration of noise and movement, he began to experience bouts of nervous excitement and anxiety. Once the seizure was so severe that Adam was taken to the hospital straight from school.
Continuous noise will stress the sound engineer. When the outside world painfully hits the ears, the sound engineer goes into selective contact. In schools, audio children are often on the sidelines, rarely participating in the general process. Therefore, to those around them, they look closed, strange and immersed in themselves. For this reason, they often become outcasts.
To dull the pain of noise, the sound engineer creates his own noise and hides in headphones. Music for the sound engineer is like sunglasses from bright light - it muffles the supersensitive perception of the world.
“Thinking… Thinking… that's my whole life, just a jumble of thoughts… all the time… my mind never stops… music works 24/7” (Dylan Klebold, 17, Columbine School).
Family environment
A child's mental health begins with a sense of security and safety. Until the age of 6, this basic feeling firmly binds him to his mother. The good condition of the mother and a favorable environment in the family are the foundation for the normal development of any psyche, regardless of vectors.
In the sound vector, neural connections die from screams and swearing, and in the anal one, the integrity of family perception is violated. The mother is the most important thing in the life of an anal child. When he sees cruelty from close people, he mentally regards it as a betrayal. Resentment against the mother arises, because it is she who is responsible for protecting him, but does not protect him.
Jeffrey Wiz, who shot his grandfather, his friend and 7 other people at Red Lake High School, was beaten and abused by his alcoholic mother from an early age. Jeffrey's father committed suicide when he was 8 years old. The stepfather drank and humiliated the child, showing no other interest. At the age of 10, together with his cousin and a drunk mother, he had an accident, in which he miraculously survived. The child was given to the grandfather to be raised.
A year before the execution, he tried to commit suicide twice. He wrote about his decision: “I have gone through many things in my life. This led me to a dark path and forced me to make a choice. " Police later found recordings on the Internet in which he expressed his attitude towards school: “This is a place where people choose alcohol over friendship, and women neglect their honor for fleeting connections. I will not be able to escape the grave that I am digging there for myself."
The development of the properties of any vector moves towards its opposite - from the archetype to the level of society, from underdevelopment towards development. The ambivalence of the development of the anal vector is the division into "clean and dirty".
Subjecting everything to a detailed and critical analysis, these people are able to find the slightest inaccuracies and errors in any business, bring the result to the ideal. These are the best pupils, students, experts, meticulous professionals and people of quality work.
Everything good that is inherent in any vector has its opposite. Violence, verbal sadism, criticism and aggression are the result of childhood trauma or failure in the social and sexual sphere of a person with an anal vector.
In a child, this can be expressed in harshness towards animals or in aggressive behavior towards younger children. In most cases, teenage shooters who survived parental divorce, emotional and physical violence in the family themselves bullied and intimidated students younger than themselves.
“You destroyed my heart, raped my soul and set my conscience on fire. You thought it was a miserable boy's life that you put out. Thanks to you, I am dying like Jesus Christ to inspire generations of weak and defenseless people.”(Cho Seung Hee, 23, Virginia Polytechnic Institute).
Moving / changing school
Knowledge transfer requires careful processing of incoming information. The desire for a thorough study of the subject does not allow such people to quickly switch tasks. Therefore, the anal vector is characterized by rigid and viscous thinking.
A sudden change in the way of life is a great stress, which can lead an anal child into a state of stupor and paralyzing fear. Such a stressful factor can be: moving to a new place, changing schools, institutes, and even meeting new people.
When it comes to an anal-sound teenager, changing school makes him extremely vulnerable. Shy and self-absorbed, he has great difficulty adapting to a new place. Loss of security and fear reduce his focus on studies and the desire to go to school.
Elliot Roger, a shooter from Isla Vista, in his notes compared school to a jungle full of wild animals, where the only place of peace for him was computer games: “The world in which I grew up became painful. This is why I completely immersed myself in World of Warcraft. I felt safe there. World of Warcraft was the only thing I had to live for. My grades plummeted. I did not care. I hated this school. I didn't think about my future. The only thing I seriously thought about was my WoW character."
Nicholas Cruise, who staged the massacre at Marjorie Stoneman Douglas High School, was transferred to different schools six times in an attempt to solve the problem of his aggressive behavior.
Dylan Roof, who shot nine people during a prayer service in an African American church, changed seven schools and then dropped out. He sat in his room all day, playing games and smoking marijuana. Jeffrey Wiz changed three schools and then re-enrolled in the eighth grade program due to academic failure.
The testimonies of relatives of other shooters also confirm the fact that the children experienced anxiety and difficulties with adaptation due to the move and change of school.
“I loved school because I loved learning. But I hate school because of all the classes I've been in. I hate everyone.”- Stephen Kazmerchak, 27, Northern Illinois University.
Bullying at school
School is a small model of the future society. In addition to knowledge, at school the child gains important social skills and the ability to interact with other people. The school role system has its own leaders, middle class, outsiders and outcasts. The role of a student in a class or group is determined in the process of unconscious ranking based on natural smells - pheromones.
School bullying and communication difficulties are key facts in the vast majority of biographies of secondary autism. However, they are not the direct cause of the massacres, but rather one of the most important factors in the adolescent's growing isolation and fear.
The inability to realize himself among peers aggravates the state of sound depression and hatred of people among whom he does not find a place for himself. In the anal vector, on the basis of bullying and alienation, a feeling of injustice and a desire for revenge arises.
Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold, who shot 13 people at Columbine High School, were frequent targets of high school athletes. In addition to homophobic remarks, they were subjected to more sophisticated antics. On one occasion, high school students publicly showered Dylan with tampons smeared with ketchup, and a bowl of laboratory feces was thrown at Harris. On the day of the execution, when they entered the school library, Klebold shouted: “Everyone in white caps, get up! This is for you for everything *** that you have arranged for us in the last four years!"
In his diaries, he also complained that everyone laughs at him, considers him rubbish. One of the notes described his condition as follows: “I have no girlfriend, I have no other friends, except for a few. Nobody accepts me, even if I want to be accepted. I do everything badly and am afraid to prove myself in any sport. I look weird and act shy. I get bad grades and have no ambition in life. From the 7th grade I feel lonely. O-O-O, God, I want to die, I feel so bad … I feel so sad, dishonest, dishonest !!! …"
The anal sound specialist has a hard time getting out into the outside world. This is an absolute introvert, where “I” is primary, and other people are secondary. Natural shyness and internal self-centeredness do not allow the anal sound specialist to be sociable. For this reason, those around him often see him as a silent, arrogant person who himself rejects attempts to get closer.
Korean student Cho Seung Hee shot 32 people with extreme brutality at Virginia Polytechnic University. Cho grew up as an extremely silent child and hardly communicated even with his family. This trait led the parents to think that Cho was suffering from a mental disorder. At school he was bullied because of his reticence and ridiculed nationality.
After the tragedy at Columbine School, he admired Eric and Dylan's act, openly expressing a desire to repeat it. After that, his parents sent Cho to a psychiatrist, but after eight years he still fulfilled his promise.
I hate you all. I hope you all die soon …”(Cho Seung Hee, 23, Virginia Polytechnic Institute).
Depression is a claustrophobic soul
The sound engineer feels that he has been given to comprehend something, but he cannot grasp it with his consciousness. He himself does not even understand that his states are an endless search. On this path he tries various sublimants. He reads science fiction, studies ideas of the past, present, is fond of music, games, technologies, but at some point loses interest: “I found it, fired up, opened it, but I feel complete disappointment. And this also makes no sense … as an eternal, exhausting run on the roads leading nowhere."
As puberty approaches, at the age of 12-14, a teenager experiences a complex spectrum of new sensations. He is no longer a child, but not yet an adult. A vague idea of the future suddenly becomes a shaky platform on which the teenager tries to hold on with the help of his properties.
Trauma, developmental delays and sound deficits reduce his ability to enter adolescence normally. Unpopularity among peers, the absence of a girlfriend and friends plunges the sound engineer into a state of deep loneliness. He feels himself to be a social outcast, and the world is unfair.
Elliot Roger, who shot 7 people on the Isla Vista campus, described his growing up period as follows: “The onset of puberty has doomed my existence to suffering. It made my life miserable. I felt depressed because I wanted sex all the time, but I felt unworthy. I didn't think I would ever experience sex in reality, and I was right. I never did this and remained a virgin. When I finally became interested in girls, there was no way I could get them. I was too withdrawn, like a turtle shoved into a shell. Such a person attracted zero attention from the girls, but attracted hooligans like moths to the fire. I was completely alone. No one knew me and did not reach out to help me."
The soundman is connected with people through an unconscious thread, but in a state of depression he feels the opposite. I hate everyone! Depression in the sound vector arises from loneliness. What causes suffering is not the actual absence of people, but the inability to create and experience an emotional connection with them. As a kind of psychic paradox: hatred for those with whom I most want to be, for what I want and don't get.
At the same time, the sound engineer feels different from others. He understands this difference in his own way through the feeling of uniqueness and natural egocentrism. People seem to him superficial, narrow-minded, similar in their intentions to animals. What can you talk to animals about?
Christopher Sean Harper-Mercer, who fatally injured 9 people at Umpqua College, was a fan of Elliot Roger and other secondary autism. He considered them and himself special people, martyrs, saving the world. “I've always been the most hated person in the world. Since I arrived in this world, I have been under siege under the attack of morons and idiots … My whole life was sheer loneliness. One loss after another. And now I'm 26 years old, no friends, no job, no girlfriend, I'm a virgin. I realized long ago that society denies pleasure to people like me. People who are elite and stand next to the gods."
When a sound engineer is focused inward, it seems to him that he is generating genius thoughts. This false sensation drives the sound vector into permanent depression. Nothing can interrupt this grave condition. Life seems like a curse, a cruel mockery, where everyone is capable of achieving happiness except him. A deep resentment and a desire to take revenge on humanity for their suffering arises in the anal sound specialist.
“I feel that I am in eternal suffering, in endless directions and endless realities, but these realities are false, artificial. They are triggered by the thought of how things work, but it's all so far apart … I sit and think. (Dylan Klebold, 17, Columbine School).
To be continued…
