I love you with all my soul. How to get closer to you?
I want to share my thoughts with you. Get them from the most intimate corners. Only the purest, only the most faithful, only the most accurate, who come suddenly, when you don't expect them, in a rush. And so you want … So you want to share with someone, enjoy their taste, their sweetness, a special feeling, when you suddenly understood something and at that moment it was as if something had changed in the Universe.
I see you. And this is all that I have been given. Eyes to see you. I cannot read your mind. I do not know what is under your skin, there, in your skull - endless wires stretch from edge to edge. And I also walk along the edge. And sometimes it seems to me that I am dying … when I see you.
Shine. This is the light in your eyes. And not a step back. I see you. I live. I catch your eye. I want to…
I want to love you.
I want to love you … with my hands.
Naked. Naked nerves along which currents rush in a frantic rhythm of passion.
How easily I can imagine this in my imagination. And all this is completely divorced from reality. As if in another parallel world we could live together, give birth to children and I would be the most tender, the most loving.
But not here. Here we are strangers, recognizing each other in thousands of changeable reflections. What is it? The great Mayan illusion. And between us there are two fortresses - yours and mine. So that we don't scratch, crush, swallow each other. So that none of us knows what monsters live in us - the cultivated seeds of selfishness, poisoning our lives with slow poison.
No, I don't even want to think about sex. Mechanical action. Sometimes people have sex just to kill time. I do not want it so. I don't want to do this with you.
What do I want? I want to share my thoughts with you. Get them from the most intimate corners. Only the purest, only the most faithful, only the most accurate, who come suddenly, when you don't expect them, in a rush. And so you want … So you want to share with someone, enjoy their taste, their sweetness, a special feeling, when you suddenly understood something and at that moment it was as if something had changed in the Universe. As if a star was lit somewhere. As if something important had been created. The only one standing on Earth. Something that is not scary to die for.
But thoughts are splashing in my head, and I continue to be silent. And I may never find the exact words. My consciousness is locked in this body, like a tight cage. And I can't just think all the time, I have to break away for snacks and sleep.
And I sit alone. And not a soul around. Not a single close person. Autumn leaves rustle quietly outside the window, and sometimes a strong gust of wind beats persistently through the window, trying to break through my fortress of silence. The fortress of feigned indifference. The fortress of alienation. Break through to me, fill my emptiness.
But I read a lot of books. And for example, I know: Stanislav Lets said that people are lonely, because instead of bridges they build fortresses.
How to destroy the fortified fortress over the years? How to fill the inner emptiness and break through the dam of untold words? How to understand this gap between body and soul, which does not allow to live? How to build a bridge between us?
Lonely fortresses
It turns out that there is something in common between me and many dreamers who carry wonderful ideas in their heads, but do not actually implement them - whether they are plans for a personal life or dreams of great achievements. Closed and lonely, they remain misunderstood strangers, unacceptable, and sometimes rejected by society, loners. And the first ones suffer from this loneliness.
System-vector psychology of Yuri Burlan explains that such are the owners of the sound vector. These are special people who need to understand the meaning of everything that happens. Without this understanding, they cannot act, they cannot even dream. They cannot build relationships, because even the values of family, love, friendship are not as important for them as the knowledge of meaning. Therefore, in order to join life, overcome their own loneliness, desired and disgusted at the same time, they need, first of all, to find themselves, to realize their desires.
Who are they - people with a sound vector?
Loneliness from within
Behind the seeming detachment and indifference, a stormy life boils inside them and a huge work is being done - work on understanding existence on Earth, on building scientific theories and new concepts, work on creating unique thought forms that are beyond the power of anyone except a sound engineer. Such are, for example, Nikola Tesla and Grigory Perelman - lone geniuses who have made breakthroughs in physics and mathematics.
Only sound scientists have abstract thinking, which means they can comprehend what others cannot even imagine. Abstract thinking does not need visual examples, it operates in other categories. Theories, equations with several unknowns, probability curves are only a small part of what the mind of a sound engineer can accommodate. To fit in - but does not mean to fill to the end. The volume of the psyche of a modern sound engineer is so great that even research in the field of theoretical physics does not bring complete satisfaction.
After building concepts, knowing the world around him, the sound engineer seeks to find out what is hidden. Learn the unknown. Uncover the unknown. To touch the mystery of infinity, to become a part of it, to include this new knowledge in order to make a breakthrough is an important discovery that will ultimately change the whole world and the fate of many people. Otherwise, there is no point in doing anything.
System-vector psychology of Yuri Burlan explains that, consciously or unconsciously, the sound engineer seeks to understand the human psyche - what is hidden from him in the unconscious. Only then does he feel like a part of this world. Feels in place. And he feels genuine pleasure from life. This is the real implementation of the sound engineer.
And it also happens that they have a thought about their own exclusiveness, a vague guess about their giftedness, which, however, is not always supported by external actions that could confirm this genius. And if this is so, the sound engineer experiences inexplicable suffering to one degree or another, as if he is a stranger at this celebration of life.
You and me are guests of nothingness
The sound engineer, with insufficient implementation, feels as if everything he does is not what he needs. As if he cannot express himself to the end and there is something hidden, to which he always aspires, but cannot achieve in any way. In bad states of the sound vector, a person feels superfluous, worthless, feels his isolation from others, the meaninglessness of his existence on Earth, even if there is no reason for this outwardly.
It is the sound engineer, by virtue of his powerful intellect, who is able to notice the subtlest nuances of the changes taking place, and it is he, like no one else, who can be aware of his own states and the states of other people. However, in a state of deep inner emptiness, the sound engineer can devalue all the good things that happen in his life. He suffers and he himself cannot understand why. He lacks something, but he does not understand what.
He may be tormented by a lack of recognition at work or from the fact that personal relationships do not develop, but these are only consequences, and not the cause of his bad conditions. In a state of sound unrealization, he cannot even really think. All of his unthinkable mental volume is occupied by an endless emptiness, which nothing can fill. As a state during the creation of the world, when - “In the beginning there was Darkness. And God said: 'Let there be Light!'”.
And we'll walk into the Light
And this light is there. You just have to feel it. This light is in our connections with other people, which are created by the sound engineer only when he reveals the structure of the psyche for himself and gets to know other people as well as himself.
And it is then, when interacting with others, fresh and most original thoughts come to our minds, and life becomes much more interesting.
In the meantime, we, sound people, tend to consider ourselves smarter than everyone else and look down at other people. This arrogance of ours prevents us from seeing the best in other people. Sometimes we do not want to make contact with a person and in every possible way protect ourselves from communicating with him precisely because we are afraid that he will not meet our expectations, that he will turn out to be the same as the rest of the "gray mass" of people.
But if you look at other people with a deep understanding of their psyche, you get a completely different picture. This opportunity is provided by systems thinking. It turns out that each person is special in his own way, one and only. And this is actually very cool, because it creates incredible space for interaction.
The correct point of view is to see what I can do for other people, not what communication with other people can give me. When we look from this perspective, we begin to see meaning in everyday things. We begin to understand other people, to understand their desires, to justify their shortcomings, to enjoy communication. And suddenly, miraculously, it becomes easier. The world is becoming dearer and clearer. And I involuntarily want to smile, and the smile widens. It becomes more pleasant with other people than alone.
Bridge over Eternity
I mentally build bridges, Their dimensions are simple, I build them from emptiness, To go where You are.
V. Gaft, "Bridges"
The huge volume of the psyche, the huge volume of desire in the sound vector determines the highest level of egoism of the sound engineer. It is because of our egoism that we, sound people, remain alone for a long time and do not even let anyone close to us, building ever higher walls and fortresses instead of building bridges of understanding with our loved ones.
But it is we who so need a loved one with whom we are tuned in to the same wavelength. No person can be happy alone, we find our happiness only in interaction with other people. It is in relationships that we realize our wildest desires, it is in relationships that we receive the fulfillment that our soul craves. It is in relationships that new meaning is revealed to us, and we receive a new impetus to creativity. We receive inspiration many times more than what was before.
Bound by the same meaning
You can touch with words even more tenderly than with your hands …
Janusz Wisniewski, "Loneliness on the Net"
The ear is the most sensitive point of the sound person's body, which picks up the smallest shades of intonation, the subtlest shades of meaning of the spoken words. As a rule, the voice of a loved one has an extremely exciting effect on the sound person. It is by the voice that the sound engineer often recognizes his pair.
The perfect match for an audio person is a different audio person. Usually silent, they easily find a common topic of conversation. And when everything has already been said, it is precisely for the sound people that it is so pleasant to just be silent together. Because then a special ringing silence is created between them - silence from being filled with meaning. And sometimes it happens in a pair of two sound people that they think about the same thing at the same time.
Most often, the relationship with the sound people begins - with accidentally coinciding general ideas, some elusive commonality of views on life, which is felt by an inner guess: I found a soul mate. A person who is able to understand when all others do not understand. And gradually these common meanings grow in breadth and depth and become a necessity, and then develop into specific joint plans for life.
What's important for a sound person in a relationship? Deep understanding of each other, general comprehension of the meaning of life. When this is, two sound people can completely merge like drops in the ocean, dissolve in each other, when no one will feel their separate “I”, but only “we”. Together. And forever. Because in sound everything happens outside of time and space. Just a pure idea. Only complete fusion into one whole. And when they are united by a common meaning, everything is given to them easily and there are no barriers to intimacy - mental and physical.
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