Psychologist Arkady needs psychological help
In our country, a man is unlikely to choose the profession of a psychologist voluntarily. Psychology. The psychology that seduced him in his youth, to which he gave many years of his life, at first did not save him from a beggarly existence and divorce from his wife, and then plunged into deep apathy of interrupted feelings with undermined self-esteem. Beaten and funny - a shoemaker without boots. More and more questions, but no answers. Now you will understand everything …
“Life is not fair, you have to get used to it,” - this is how Arkady begins his training. He did not invent it himself - he borrowed it, you will immediately guess from whom. “Life is a deception with enchanting melancholy” - from his lips, such a quote would sound pathetic, inappropriate, because the training is not a theater: it would not frighten the audience. And from the mouth of Lena's daughter, the same thought sounded too harsh and adolescent: "Dad, life is pain, you won't change anything with your trainings." He combined. So he called his adapted version - named after Elena Yesenina: “Life is not fair, you have to get used to it”.
Arkady, you can just - bachelor of psychology
I will say a few words about the hero. In our country, a man is unlikely to choose the profession of a psychologist voluntarily. Now you will understand everything. Arkady had such a test for the clientele - to describe his activities with synonyms: "What word do you associate yourself with in your business?" As a conscientious specialist, he himself passed it several times. And inevitably the first thing that came into his head was "helpless." With similar phrases, his wife left him. After a twelve-year long marriage, for him - naive, promising interpenetration and spiritual depth, not like others, but for her - unfulfilled hopes, in anticipation of the disclosure of husband's talents: “it seemed that we were about to live normally, with money, and everything would be like everyone has". This did not happen. She didn’t want to wait yet and went to the energetic one, walking on the ground, and not hovering in the clouds. He kept several shops, two dogs,dacha and held it tightly. She was not happy, but she was calm, she felt protected and safe.
The newly-made bachelor faced the same helplessness in his practice. He received in the center, in a small office, which he managed to acquire with free money when exchanging an apartment. On Friday, when he was about to leave, a girl came in, on long legs, with a graceful gait, in a pale pink jacket, a white T-shirt, which, like a white flag, signaled - "give up, I am without underwear." And here is her name, written on a glass of coffee - Rita. Even before Rita appeared in the office, Arkady heard her clicking on the glossy tiles of the corridor. Closing the door behind her, he inadvertently looked out into the hall - to check if gold coins were flying off her steps, and thought to himself: "Doe, natural doe." So everyone forgives, and he immediately forgave her visit without a call, without an appointment.
She learned about him from a friend who vividly and emotionally admired him as a specialist and a man. And she certainly wanted to try this psychologist too, suddenly it would help. Rita wanted to get married, and it didn't work out. She had everything: fans, gifts, flowers, fights for her heart - at this phrase, Arkady noticed a playful, self-satisfied laugh on the narrator's face, and he himself was sucked in the stomach. Only now there was no real love, everything quickly got bored, sex became insipid, and in order to somehow dilute the colors of life, she went on an affair, and this again fights, screams, horror, horror, Rita can't do that anymore. And then, she was tired of pulling everything on herself, working like a horse and being a strong girl, but she really wants to be weak, and this is possible only next to the right man - her husband. At that moment she looked into Arkady's eyes, flapped her eyelashes,and it seemed that her cheeks were flushed. "It's stuffy with you, will I take off my jacket?" “Shoot everything…” - Arkady almost burst out, but, fortunately, there was a restrained nod of his head, the correct answer in his position. They exchanged a few minor phrases, and the therapist scheduled a full hour and a half session for Rita the following week.
From meeting to meeting, she told more and more personal details. And to all the recommendations of her counterpart that it was necessary to read more, work on oneself, meet men in the right places like museums, exhibitions, in theaters, she frowned with displeasure and destroyed all psychological knowledge with one question in a thin voice: “Is it really a happy life - is it soooo boring? " Indeed, boring - another definition was added to the notorious test: "helpless" and "boring." It's about him. “Bright, effective, knowing what she wants” - this is about her. Maybe this is what he is missing? And the halves are not enough? This thought quickly took possession of him, he realized that she had seduced him, he fell in love. The roles immediately changed, he became powerless in front of her. Now Rita is a psychologist, and Arkady is a client. He needs her. And he told her?
Goodbye, Nikitich, I flew
Arkady Nikitich, firstly, debunked all disputes about its correct pronunciation with his patronymic, and secondly, he was brought up by a principled father. His name was Nikita Artemyevich - surprised))? What is important is that he laid in his son one simple and at the same time complex truth: “Son, never build relationships at work. Only the last scoundrels use their position, position to persuade a woman to intimacy."
And his son held out to the last. It was incredibly difficult in Rita's presence. She was so biting her lips … And her aspiration … It was not possible to work at all, and in order to reduce the degree, 20 minutes before the meeting, he locked himself in the toilet and engaged in infantile sexual self-satisfaction. Like a teenage boy feeling guilty about the completely natural act of receiving pleasure. Why is that? Why is it embarrassing now, he understood, he looked pathetic, but then, as a child? A kaleidoscope played the image of his father, who repeatedly burst into his room with a frenzied face and feverish questions: “What are you doing? Why did you quiet down? " Yes, definitely, he wanted to catch my hand, to shame me. Onanophobe.
This, of course, could not continue for long, and the woman defeated the man. Nothing new. He invited her to dinner at a restaurant - overlooking Isakievsky for her, overlooking her for him. Then a date, then another, then sex. The sweetest and most intoxicating in his life. And then she disappeared. Stopped answering calls and messages. I deleted the page on the social network and was not found on the streets of the city. Many months of attempts to find her in bars and restaurants, adventures in which she shared tete-a-tete in his office, were inglorious during the day and disastrous in the evening. The painful waiting was brightened up by a glass of bitter, hot anesthesia against the unhappy life. Rita isn't here. And she's not there. All. The butterfly flew away.
Life is not fair. I know I have lived
Arkady lost the main love of his life, and this is not a frivolous seducer. Psychology. The psychology that seduced him in his youth, to which he gave many years of his life, at first did not save him from a miserable existence and divorce from his wife, and then plunged him into a deep apathy of interrupted feelings with undermined self-esteem. Beaten and funny - a shoemaker without boots. More and more questions, but no answers. Just accept it.
As Pushkin Herman repeats in the Obukhov hospital: "Three, seven, ace", so our watched despaired and kept repeating: "Life is unfair, you have to get used to it."
PS Arkady, I know that you are reading this article. I left you links with the disclosure of your stories, found answers to your questions. If you want real love and real psychology, then click the mouse. Signature: J.