Love, Vincent
Vincent Van Gogh gave the world beauty. He enjoyed the play of light and shades of colors and transmitted them to others through his canvases. July 29, 1890. At the age of 37, Vincent Van Gogh died of blood loss as a result of being shot in the abdomen after two days of agony. Suicide or an inevitable coincidence?
There are bright colors on the canvases. Sunflowers breathing life, quietly sighing starry night. And inside there is an abyss.
Vincent Van Gogh. Great. Ingenious. Unpredictable. This is how he is for everyone. But were his actions so unpredictable? Let's try to figure it out.
What do we know about Van Gogh? Pictures, a severed earlobe … A genius who was not understood. Today the secret has become clear, and any genius can be understood.
July 29, 1890. At the age of 37, Vincent Van Gogh died of blood loss as a result of being shot in the abdomen after two days of agony. Suicide or an inevitable coincidence?
From the conclusion of criminologists:
By the nature of the wound, it can be concluded that the shot was fired "not at close range, but from a certain distance from the body."
Usually suicides shoot themselves in the head or heart to be sure. And here in the stomach - a very painful wound, a long agony. Have you changed your mind? Decided that you want to live?
The day before the shot. Vincent asked his brother Theo to buy some drawing materials. I wrote to him that I was going to create many paintings.
6 weeks before the fateful day. After treatment in a psychiatric clinic, Van Gogh returned calm and level-headed to French Arles. There he worked frantically, spending time in the open air every day.
9 years before death. Vincent Van Gogh is 28 years old. After years of searching, he took up a brush and became a self-taught artist.
"Difficult child
Vincent Van Gogh was the eldest of six children in the family of Pastor Theodore Van Gogh and his wife Anna Carbentus.
The kid craved motherly love and tried to show his best qualities in order to attract her attention. Anna lost in infancy the first Vincent, born a year before the birth of the artist known to us. Throughout his childhood, little Van Gogh thought that he was born to replace and felt very lonely.
He avoided children and games with them, he was on his own. Pensiveness was replaced by sudden outbursts of disobedience. The amplitude of the changes in behavior and the dissimilarity from "normal" children put Vincent in the "difficult" category. His parents punished him every now and then, and at school they did not know how to cope with him. "Not like everyone else", "Wild" - already in childhood, Vincent showed noticeable properties of the sound vector of the psyche, but then they still did not know anything about it.
Vincent was so incomprehensible about parenting that at the age of 11 he was sent to study at a boarding school. The separation from his family was painful for the boy and heightened his sense of loneliness. To please the family, in 1869, young Van Gogh began work at a large enterprise selling fine art objects. He diligently tried to live up to the responsibilities assigned to him. But the sale of paintings was down his throat. The antagonism between trying to work well and denying the very essence of his work could not go unnoticed, and Vincent was fired, even though his relatives were co-owners of the company.
For people with a sound vector, the idea is always above material wealth. If they do not feel the global meaning in the profession, then they simply cannot stay in it.
Later Vincent preached, translated the scriptures into French, English and German. I read the Bible to illiterate people, visited the sick and taught children. At the same time, at night, he began to paint …
From self-taught to genius
For eight years, his genius turned a self-taught artist into a master who entered the cohort of the great artists of his time.
In 1888, Vincent equipped a small house in the French city of Arles as a workshop and settled there. For days he painted landscapes in silence and solitude, completely immersed in the very essence of the secrets of color, light and the mood of nature. Van Gogh dreamed that his yellow hut would become a boarding house for artists, and his friend Gauguin would run it.
However, everything went awry, and after a violent quarrel with Gauguin, Vincent cut off his ear, which shocked all his entourage in Arles. The next day he was taken to a psychiatric hospital.
During the period of remission, Vincent asked to go home to work on the paintings. There he was openly harassed by neighbors, the police, the mayor, even the children bullied him. The whole city is against a sick person, with demands to fence off a dangerous patient from them.
In the spring of 1889, the artist was taken to the Saint-Paul clinic for the mentally ill in Saint-Remy-de-Provence, where Vincent spent twelve months. Every day he worked hard on his work.
It was during this period that his famous "Starry Night" was painted, which depicted a view from the window of a room on the east side of the hospital. He looked through the iron bars and… created his masterpieces.
Returning to Arles in the summer of 1890, Vincent was calm and stable, without outbursts of rage. He wrote to his brother Theo that he was now feeling well, that he was going to work hard and asked for money to buy canvases and paints. After 1.5 months, Vincent died from a gunshot.
I will give you a miracle, I have so much of it
Vincent Van Gogh gave the world beauty. He enjoyed the play of light and shades of colors and transmitted them to others through his canvases. He equally discerned grace in a naked woman and in a potato tuber. In moments of calmness and balance, I was ready to embrace the whole world and endlessly draw, depict, transmit.
So what went wrong?
Lord tell me why I live?
There was a hole in the chest of a genius, inexplicable for him. Despite the fact that he was recognized by the community of artists, he participated in exhibitions and wrote about him in magazines - nothing pleased.
The fact is that at the time of Vincent Van Gogh's life, they did not know and did not know how to diagnose the sound vector of the psyche and the difficult internal states that only sound people experience when they cannot discover the meaning of life for themselves. Studying the Bible and translating it into foreign languages, the artist's wild look, withdrawal, silence and loneliness, and then outbursts of uncontrollable rage - these are the few signs of the presence of the properties of the sound vector in the psyche of a genius.
The owners of the sound vector have been puzzled all their lives by the spiritual search, the desire to know themselves, the essence of being. And if for other people the meaning of life is obvious - family, love, success or vocation - then the meaning of life of "sound musicians" is the search for the very meaning of life.
"Why do I exist?", "What will happen after life?", "What is the meaning of gravity and the movement of planets, the change of day and night, cosmic cycles and the presence of God himself?"
Crazy inner search, which becomes the main search for geniuses - "cheats".
When there are no answers to these questions, the person is covered with a concrete slab of depression, sometimes mixed with outbursts of rage and hatred for all living things and God himself.
"Lord, answer my question!" But God is silent. Failure to understand the meaning of life reduces the value of existence in this world to zero, and a person can reach suicide.
Why ear?
The volume of the psyche of the owners of the sound vector is so large that the body seems insignificant in comparison with it. They may forget to eat or forget what they have eaten and start over, be untidy, unkempt. They are not interested in material things, they are not up to it. The main thing is the idea. And Vincent had it - to draw, paint, paint diligently to the point of insanity. Van Gogh created 11 variants of Sunflowers alone. “The worst thing to do with paintings is to sell them,” said the unmercenary Vincent when he worked for an art and trade firm.
At the physical level, the ears are the most sensitive organ in carriers of the sound vector. More precisely, the part of the brain that is responsible for the perception of information through hearing. Ability to listen to silence. The pleasure of being alone with yourself. Listen to rustles, whispers, sounds of the night, melodies, intonations, meanings.
Vincent Van Gogh often worked in the open air in silence, where only the singing of birds and the flapping of the wings of butterflies were heard.
Why did he cut off his own ear? We won't ask anymore. However, according to the peculiarities of the artist's psyche, we can conclude that, having not found answers to his questions, he deprived himself of exactly that organ that connected him with the outside world. Pointless and annoying. That organ that did not hear the answers to the questions posed by the artist to the cosmos itself.
How can you go from feeling completely calm to suicide in six weeks?
Finding answers to questions about meanings can drive you into slow or quick suicide. The whole being of a person begins to commit such acts that will lead to death - for example, immersion in dependence on alcohol or drugs, anti-state statements, arguments with hooligans on the street, recruiting in a hot spot, a shot …
It was suicide - whether he fired the shot himself or had the teenagers who teased him to the point of firing. In the last hours, Van Gogh's words were: "I do not want to talk about death, I want to talk about life." He wanted to live, but he could no longer live.
Code
The soul, like the human body, consists of "organs" - sets of mental properties called vectors. When one hurts, and we treat another, the first hurts even more, until the death of the whole organism. Correct diagnosis is the first step to recovery.
Van Gogh still live among us today. Unanswered questions, unanswered search … The sunflower gives seeds for new life, after the starry night there will be day. What for?
