A person's knowledge of himself: the real result of abstract searches
Attempts of the sound engineer, focused only on himself, to reveal the huge unified unconscious inevitably fail. Man is a closed system, he feels only himself. The mistake is that, by moving away from others, not understanding them, we cannot realize ourselves. Just as they are unable to distinguish white in the absence of black - everything is cognized in opposites, in comparison.
Endless inner search. Eternal thirst for knowledge. Someone scattered “bread crumbs” of meanings all over the world. And I, like a beggar, searched for them for many years in order to satisfy my incomprehensible hunger to others. A person's knowledge of himself was a matter of survival in this strange world around. I have always felt that something incredibly important is hidden in this question: "Who am I?"
Knowing yourself - the first steps
It was definitely clear that a person is not only a physical body, because the joys and pleasures of the body gave me so little and did not saturate my soul at all. In fact, my own body was much more of a burden to me. He had to be fed and bathed. Keep fit and dress. Take care of him constantly. It was incredibly annoying at times.
I read somewhere that “the body is the prison of the spirit,” and I completely agreed. I knew for sure that a person was born for great achievements, and not at all in order to provide his physical body with bliss and all kinds of comfort.
The process of self-knowledge assumed that I would finally find this real tool, with the help of which the picture of the world around me and my place in it would be put together. In the end it happened, but before that I was waiting for seven circles of hell.
I am everything. Down and Out trouble started
I can unfold my palm and absorb the tremors of heaven into it, I can resurrect fire and comprehend the singing forest … *
In my youth, I was absolutely sure that I could do anything. Absolutely everything, do you understand? I can change the world. Yes Yes exactly. There was a joyful anticipation: the world around was either hanging on the tips of the fingers that had only to be clicked, and … Or maybe he twisted on the tip of his tongue in search of that very cherished Word?..
It seemed that just about - and I will find the very thing that is missing. I will be able to figure out how to use this special gift. Just get to know yourself, your special device - and everything will work out!
The people around me frankly twisted a finger at my temple and made unflattering comments about my self-esteem. Society assumed that a person should live like everyone else and pull this strap to his deathbed. But I was not too concerned about the opinion of the "stupid philistines". By that time, it was already clear that we would hardly find a common language.
I am nothing. Emptiness and "black hole"
I can survive in a world where every second person is my enemy.
Fluttering in the violent wind … I can. But I don't know HOW. *
Time seeped inexorably like sand through your fingers. And I never found anything. Each person was supposed to graduate from school - and I graduated. And a person was also supposed to acquire a profession - and reluctantly, I set off to storm the university. Sitting in pairs, I found out that every day it becomes more difficult for me to focus on what the lecturer is saying. It was as if I was "disconnected", did not perceive the information. It was even more difficult to withstand the voices of classmates during the break - they shouted so that it hurt my ears.
Much later, at the training on System-Vector Psychology by Yuri Burlan, I learned that such conditions are not uncommon for a person with a sound vector. They arise as a consequence of what the sound engineer was looking for, but did not find on his own a way to know himself. I could not realize my natural striving for self-knowledge and knowledge of the world around.
And then I did not understand anything. I just got used to fencing myself off with headphones with my favorite music from this screaming, unbearably roaring crowd. This did not save me from inner emptiness and growing mental pain. I began to fall into a deep depression, with a black hole at the core of myself. Self-esteem fell from the level of "omnipotent" to the level of "insignificance."
I am nothing. Empty place. Life is meaningless and empty.
What gives a person knowledge of himself: what is the method - so is the result
For a while I tried to fill my incomprehensible thirst with the help of philosophy. It didn’t help for long, and philosophy didn’t give the answer: what should I do with myself, how should I live? And for what? What's the point of this? The physical body burdened me more and more, I began to feel it as something separate from myself.
There were attempts through which almost every person with a sound vector went through: I greedily swallowed all kinds of religious and esoteric literature. For a while, yoga helped with depression: the thought that being “blissful nothing” is great, lulling me. And the exercises partially returned to me the adequacy of the perception of my own physical body.
But these "near-semantic sublimants" only dulled the feeling of meaninglessness and emptiness. Then she piled with even greater force, with each new coil the pain of the soul became stronger. Unbearable, hellish pain. It seemed that my body was to blame. Thoughts involuntarily came that if you throw it through the window, maybe the pain will go away with the death of the physical body? And finally I will remain I - eternal, infinite and free?
It was at the time when I recognized as useless any methods of knowing myself and seriously thought about suicide, that I was invited to the introductory lectures on systemic vector psychology by Yuri Burlan.
How does a person know himself
In every description of a sound person, I recognized myself. Seclusion, unsociability, intolerance to loud sounds. Concentrating on your thoughts, feeling your potential "genius", superiority over other people who are preoccupied with mundane issues.
It turned out that the main task of a person with a sound vector is precisely to cognize, to reveal the hidden laws by which the world around and the human soul is arranged. But I did not escape the "trap" into which almost every person with a sound vector fell: I tried to reveal these processes on my own, believing that everything necessary is concentrated in me.
Thanks to the training, I realized that I am not the only person with such properties, about 5% of sound specialists are born. They are not interested in the needs of the physical body. But they are striving to reveal such a desired plan, according to which our world is arranged.
Our psyche (soul) is one. Attempts of the sound engineer, focused only on himself, to reveal the huge unified unconscious inevitably fail. Man is a closed system, he feels only himself. The mistake is that, by moving away from others, not understanding them, we cannot realize ourselves. Just as they are unable to distinguish white in the absence of black - everything is cognized in opposites, in comparison.
An unfulfilled desire to know the structure of the soul leads the sound engineer to depression. To get out of it, it is necessary to concentrate outside: to learn to accurately determine the psyche of another person and, as a result, to crystallize an understanding of oneself. It gives fulfillment, relieves depression and suicidal thoughts.
System-vector psychology of Yuri Burlan describes in detail the structure of our psyche, making it possible to obtain real results of a person's knowledge of himself. This is the joy of revealing the laws that govern the world around. The joy of realization, of life in a physical body. The meaningfulness of being and the happiness of cooperation with other people:
Know yourself
Tired of useless philosophy? The body is burdensome, and attempts to understand the meaning of what is happening bring nothing but pain, emptiness and the feeling of something elusive? Give yourself a chance to see life as it is at the free online training on systemic vector psychology by Yuri Burlan. Register using the link.
