Resentment against the mother. Who is to blame that our life did not take place?
Resentment against the mother is very destructive, it is forbidden by nature, because it is back, into emptiness, into offense, to Sodom and Gomorrah. This is one of the significant prohibitions. This is a stupor, this is the inability to change, a dead pillar of salt …
Fragment of the lecture notes of the First Level on the topic "Anal vector":
Any child needs a mother. But most of all - a child with an anal vector. He never starts an action, does not make a decision, does not make a choice himself - his mother should push him to all this.
Here mom comes into the room, and he sits on the sofa, hands on his knees, an obedient boy. What mom says - he will do. She asked me to clean the room - so we, anal sexes, will sweep the dirty linen from all corners to the middle, then we will clean this middle, and put everything on the shelves in the cabinet. Not like leather workers in five minutes, but in three hours. And then his mother says to him: "Go, son, read a book." So he sits down and reads.
Then such a person will grow up and be loyal to the team and society. If everything was good in childhood, then also a patriot. And if not, a stubborn ram will grow up “I won't go, mother, to the kindergarten” - not loyal, but a critic, not a patriot, but a nationalist. He will not love his homeland, but hate strangers.
If everything is with my mother, thank God, then the mother is holy, an incredible attachment to the mother is formed. When this does not add up, it turns out to be a stubborn ram, a debater. Then the nature of the anal man - obedience and loyalty - turns into stubbornness.
Mom didn’t give love, and dad’s salary - there is resentment, lack, emptiness, resentment against the mother. Stupor, inhibition. Anal stupor, inhibition is a terrible thing: "Uncle Vasya, why have you been sitting on the couch all your life?" - "My mother was bad, so I'm sitting!" In spite - this is also us.
Resentment against the mother is very destructive, it is forbidden by nature, because it is back, into emptiness, into offense, to Sodom and Gomorrah. This is one of the significant prohibitions. It is a stupor, an inability to change, a dead pillar of salt. Resentment causes us great suffering. A person has a wide spectrum of suffering: both shame and depression, when life has no meaning. But one of the most severe suffering is resentment. Even when we try to extract positive emotions from her through revenge, we still do not live our lives.
A person's life is in the range of good and bad feelings. We are made to receive. It’s me living my life, not my mother. I feel my life, not her.
Sometimes old footage is shown on TV: Times Square, the beginning of the twentieth century, 16-frame film, people have different thoughts on their faces, aspirations, experiences. Many emotions, many feelings. Millions of these people are no longer alive. Moreover, there were no people left who knew these people from the cadres. No one remembers who was offended by whom, what they experienced and felt. Nobody remembers anything about their lives.
Who will be to blame that our life did not take place? It is we ourselves who experience bad conditions - resentments - instead of good ones. Not our mothers. Now, if they felt all our pain, then okay, take revenge … But no, we are living them. Who is to blame is absolutely unimportant, even if God is God, that is not the question. The question is that we do not live this life, instead of happiness and satisfaction we spend all the time in offense, like pillars of salt chained to a sofa.
Our property to be offended has nothing to do with consciousness, consciousness slips us "explanations" and rationalizations. The anal vector is offended in us. The unique properties of the anal vector are created in order to make their owners erudites, scientists, professionals, experts, no one can know more than an anal person. Where are we directing these properties? Dead end. "I won't go, mother, to the kindergarten!" - an adult man sits and whines.
Why should she love you? It has nothing to do with it. Consciousness to this simple matter, when you were conceived, had nothing to do with it. I wanted something. She wanted pleasure. What, she didn't feed you? Didn't save your life? Someone over there … threw the baby into the trash, then the insult is understandable. But you, your forehead are healthy, you can work, she nursed you, saved your life, sent you to school, but what did you give? Did you give something to your mom? An old woman is sitting, you haven't called her for 20 years …
Recorded by Bulat Galikhanov. July 23, 2014 A
comprehensive understanding of this and other topics is formed on the full oral training "System-Vector Psychology".
