Marina Tsvetaeva. The Leader's Passion - Between Power and Mercy
Tsvetaeva gathered around her a variety of people, whom we know only because of their closeness to the poet. She chose according to equality of properties or by the mercy of her soul. Equals were negligible, in need of mercy - a legion. Marina gave herself generously, in an urethral way, giving out of lack to everyone she chose.
Part 1
And remember: no zoologist
Doesn't know what kind of animal it is.
Sofia Parnok
Earning a mention of yourself in a few lines of an encyclopedia from a story is a rare success or the fruit of hard work. Marina Tsvetaeva gathered around her a variety of people, whom we know only because of their closeness to the poet. She chose Tsvetaeva for the equality of properties or for the mercy of her soul. Equals were negligible, in need of mercy - a legion. Marina gave herself generously, in an urethral manner, giving out of lack to everyone she chose.
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Sofia Parnok is an unusual woman. An extraordinary mind, mastery of the word with an assumed simplicity of communication on the verge of outrageousness won her the sympathy of many and the cordial friendship of Tsvetaeva, who placed high on Parnok's poetic work. Marina saw and understood the broken soul of Sophia - not a hunter or a predator, "only a woeful and noble creature." The first marriage of Sofia Parnok did not work out, since then she has sought solace in the arms of women. At that time, there was a widespread opinion expressed by Maya Kudasheva-Rollan: "Ordinary love between a man and a woman is when a woman experiences nothing."
In 1920, Marina wrote a poem widely known today "Under the caress of a plush blanket …". The original title of the poem "Error", and only 20 years later Tsvetaeva will rename it to the neutral "Girlfriend". The poem is dedicated to Parnok.
Marina did not recoil in sanctimonious horror, did not go into hysterics. She calmly accepted the nature of the other as her own, without hesitation giving all of herself as soon as she could: “Half a life? - All of you! / Elbow? - Here she is!" Later Tsvetaeva wrote: "Others are sold for money, I - for the soul!" And again: “On the attraction of homogeneous floors. My case does not count, because I love souls, regardless of gender, yielding to it, so as not to interfere."
Sofia did not have enough love, Marina generously gave her friend love. Their relationship did not last long, but until the end of her days, Parnok kept a photograph of Marina on the table. The break in relations with Sofia was inevitable. In her return to her friend, Marina became completely ill, another transition from the return of the urethra to the egocentrism of sound was brewing, Marina expelled everyone from herself for complete immersion in loneliness:
Remember: all heads are dearer to me
One hair from my head.
And go yourself! - You too, And you too, and you …
Stop loving me - stop loving everything!
Guard not me in the morning!
So that I can safely leave
Stand in the wind.
Marina Tsvetaeva believed that the main mistake of same-sex love was the impossibility of having a child. This is against nature, it means it is wrong, wrong. “Nature says: no. By forbidding us this, she protects herself."
The task of all women, except for one, skin-visual, is the birth and raising of children. The urethral woman is capable of getting pregnant and giving birth to any male, but by nature she is especially prone to preserving the gene pool of "perfectly useless" skin-visual men, not too adapted, not having a strong libido, not wanting to kill. Such males often remain "not taken" by the males of the flock and do not leave offspring, while their properties are of great importance for the future, when they become not only beautiful, but also useful.
Marina Tsvetaeva's only passion for life was her husband, who was even more desired in separation. Each meeting with him was a holiday for Marina, separation was a torment. In the spring of 1917, Irina Efron, the second child of Marina and Sergei, was born. In October of the same year, S. Efron took part in the battles in Moscow, and after the victory of the Bolsheviks he left for the Crimea, then joined the Volunteer Army and went to the Don. Marina remains in Moscow. “If God does a miracle - he leaves you alive, I will follow you like a dog,” she writes in a letter to her husband at the front.
Mother of God in heaven, remember my passers-by! (M. Ts.)
The concept of "love" to the urethral vector is not applicable. Earthly love is only in sight. It is not in the urethra, but there is passion. An irresistible attraction to someone who has a “mortal need”, to someone “not taken”, but who can give offspring. This is mercy. Even the most sacrificial love in sight is getting at least the opportunity to love and sacrifice further. In the urethra - the pleasure of giving, filling the lack of the object of passion.
I finally met
I need it:
Someone has a mortal
The need is in me.
The urethra does not appropriate, it is outside and above all possessive, selfish jealousies, loyalty and sacrifices. Marina writes: “What you call love (sacrifice, jealousy, fidelity), take care for others… I don’t need it. I so rapidly enter the life of everyone who is dear to me in some way, so I want to help him, "regret" that he is afraid - either that I love him, or that he will love me and that his family life will be upset. This is not said, but I always want to shout: “Lord my God! I don’t want anything from you. You can leave and come again, leave and never return … I want lightness, freedom, understanding - not to hold anyone and that no one to hold!"
Nobody took anything away
It is sweet to me that we are apart!
I kiss you through hundreds
Separating versts.
These lines are written about Mandelstam. Marina devoted several days in Moscow and eleven poems to him. Tsvetaeva gave her City crazy to the poet in love with her. For the sake of "getting rid of erotic madness" OE Mandelstam was even ready to convert to Orthodoxy. For Marina, he was, first of all, a genius recognized from the first lines; she, with her characteristic generosity, immediately christened Mandelstam "the young Derzhavin." According to the testimony of the poet's widow N. Ya. Mandelstam, Marina with her most powerful influence not only gave a new sound to Osip's poems, she taught him to "love uncontrollably." She taught and immediately stepped aside, letting go withts: "Tender and irrevocable / Nobody looked after you …"
It's over with Russia. On the last of it we lost it, blabbed it out … (M. Voloshin)
In the first revolutionary winter in Moscow it is scary. The price went up, then the food disappeared. Even experienced housewives find it difficult to make ends meet. Marina is absolutely not adapted to everyday problems, the capital left by her mother has been expropriated. Tsvetaeva sells things for a pittance, she doesn't know how to bargain. It is impossible to get milk for little Irina.
The "condensation" began, strangers moved into Marina's apartment in Borisoglebskoye, among them "Bolshevik X". Fascinated by Marina, he helps her with food and money, even arranges Tsvetaeva to work in the People's Commissariat for Ethnic Affairs. From the heart. It is clear that Marina did not work there for long.
Submission, regulation and routine are not for the urethral-sound person. But N. Berdyaev, V. Khodasevich, even the former director of the imperial theaters, Prince. Volkonsky! They can. Marina - no. This is not a whim or stubbornness. What is not in the psychic is impossible to learn. Marina is stoic in relation to herself, her needs are minimal, but she will never learn to obey.
In this difficult time, Marina Tsvetaeva's anxiety about her husband is inescapable. There is no news from the South.
I don't know if I'm alive or not
The one who is dearer to me than my heart
The one who is dearer to me than the Son …
Tsvetaeva has neither sympathy nor understanding for the victorious power. Contempt and anger are aroused by the monarchs of a penny and an hour.
Then it seemed to many that the Bolshevik coup was a short-lived phenomenon, a month or two and life would return to its former track. And only MA Voloshin, comparing the revolutions in Russia and in France, writes: “There is no evidence that Bolshevism … has outlived itself in a very short time … it has all the data to strengthen through terror for a long time. In general, now it is a matter of terror, which will probably be preceded by a big pogrom organized by government circles."
Another fulfilled prophecy of the sound-visual seer. Marina will never meet her teacher and friend again, in Koktebel in November 1917 they saw each other for the last time. As if foreseeing this too, Maximilian Alexandrovich, before Tsvetaeva's departure for Moscow, devotes to her beautiful poems "Two Steps", completely in tune with Marina's feelings at the beginning of the 1917 catastrophe:
And an officer, unknown to anyone, He looks with contempt - cold and dumb -
On violent crowds, senseless crush, And, listening to their frenzied howl, Annoyed that I’m not at hand
Two batteries "scatter this bastard".
Continuation:
Marina Tsvetaeva. Snatching the older one out of the darkness, she didn’t save the younger. Part 3
Marina Tsvetaeva. I will win you back from all lands, from all heavens … Part 4
Marina Tsvetaeva. I would like to die, but I have to live for Moore. Part 5
Marina Tsvetaeva. My hour with you is over, my eternity remains with you. Part 6
Literature:
1) Irma Kudrova. The path of the comets. Book, St. Petersburg, 2007.
2) Tsvetaeva without gloss. Pavel Fokin's project. Amphora, St. Petersburg, 2008.
3) Marina Tsvetaeva. Captive spirit. Azbuka, St. Petersburg, 2000.
4) Marina Tsvetaeva. Books of poetry. Ellis-Lak, Moscow, 2000, 2006.
5) Marina Tsvetaeva. House near Old Pimen, electronic resource tsvetaeva.lit-info.ru/tsvetaeva/proza/dom-u-starogo-pimena.htm
